Olivia Cusack has the letter M tattooed on her wrist.

It stands for Maddy, her sister, the Sheffield United footballer who died in September 2023.

“Her life was minimize quick,” says Olivia.

“There’s a whole lot of issues we deliberate collectively that we did not get to expertise.”

Midfielder Maddy Cusack was 27 years previous when she was discovered lifeless at her residence in Derbyshire.

She had performed for the Blades since 2019 and have become the primary participant to make 100 appearances for his or her ladies’s facet.

There are nonetheless unanswered questions concerning the circumstances surrounding her loss of life – ones kinfolk had hoped to have answered at an inquest in July.

However the listening to is now anticipated to happen in January.

For Olivia, the delays are irritating.

“It is the largest factor that is ever occurred for me personally in my life and you don’t have any management over how that’s handled,” she tells BBC Newsbeat.

Olivia’s tattoo is simply one of many issues she has been capable of do to honour her sister’s reminiscence.

Her household additionally arrange a basis in Maddy’s title to assist ladies and ladies in soccer.

However Olivia says it has been laborious to grieve correctly whereas official investigations have taken so lengthy to conclude.

An exterior report ordered by Sheffield United shortly after Maddy’s loss of life cleared the membership of wrongdoing.

However a second report from the Soccer Affiliation, commissioned in early 2024, will not be revealed till her inquest concludes.

“It is nearly just like the pause button was hit in October 2023,” Olivia says, referring to the date when the inquest first opened.

“With the lack of Maddy you need to consider her at peace and that she’s okay.

“But it surely’s laborious to image her at peace now when there’s a lot chaos surrounding her loss of life.”

There was no official rationalization for Maddy’s loss of life, although police mentioned on the time it was not thought-about suspicious.

Her household has beforehand mentioned she had no longstanding psychological well being points, however confronted monetary pressures within the months earlier than.

She additionally balanced her soccer profession with a full-time advertising job on the membership’s workplaces.

Maddy’s household has complained about “processes and conduct” at Sheffield United, together with that of former ladies’s workforce supervisor Jonathan Morgan.

At a pre-inquest listening to in June, Mr Morgan mentioned witnesses put ahead by the household had been “one-sided” and requested permission to ask these with “an opposing view” to testify.

Coroner Sophie Cartwright, who’s accountable for the inquest, mentioned she would make a judgement on these points earlier than the total hearings.

All of that has made it “very tough for the household to place these feelings to 1 facet and take care of them correctly”, Olivia says.

“While you are still in combating mode, in search of that justice, it is tough to take your foot off the gasoline for a minute and really take into consideration what’s occurred and are available to phrases with it.”

Within the meantime, Maddy’s household and associates have been in search of methods to pay a long-lasting tribute to her.

Former Sheffield United goalkeeper Nina Wilson remembers their time collectively on the membership fondly.

“Maddy was Miss Sheff United,” she says.

“After I signed for Sheffield she got here and met me within the automobile park at Bramhall Lane.

“I would by no means met her earlier than however it felt like we had been already associates.”

Like Olivia, Nina additionally obtained a tattoo to recollect Maddy.

Hers is an eight – the identical quantity Maddy wore every time she stepped on to the pitch.

“It was emotional, one thing I needed to do just about immediately,” says Nina.

“Everybody is aware of how a lot she cherished that shirt.”

Nina, who has stop soccer since Maddy’s loss of life, has known as on Sheffield United to retire the shirt

“It might imply a lot to her for that to at all times be her quantity,” she says.

Maddy’s household backs the marketing campaign, which Nina describes as a strategy to preserve her pal in individuals’s ideas.

Because the inquest will get additional away, Nina says: “I do really feel that her reminiscence slowly fades away.

“And that is why we battle so laborious.”

Since Maddy’s loss of life, no-one else has worn the quantity eight shirt for Sheffield United Ladies – who play within the new WSL 2 league.

The membership confirmed its fan advisory board had proposed retiring of Maddy’s shirt on two separate events.

However in an announcement, it mentioned: “We, as a membership, really feel that maintaining the quantity in existence provides a reminder of whom has worn it beforehand and retains Maddy’s reminiscence alive.”

Sheffield United added that it had taken the identical stance on defender George Baldock, who died in 2024 after spending seven years on the membership.

Plans to mark the second anniversary of Maddy’s loss of life on 20 September on the facet’s residence sport towards Charlton Athletic are being finalised, the membership mentioned.

It additionally mentioned “conversations could be had” about any lasting tributes as soon as Maddy’s inquest concludes.

Till that day, Olivia has the tattoo as one lasting reminder of her sister.

“Wherever I am going, you will include me. Anybody I meet, you will shake their hand,” she says.

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